I Finally Told Mom

After my experience with the young girl who did not commit suicide because of my testimony, decided it was time to tell mom about what had occurred.

That was one of the most liberating confessions I have ever made. For over 30 years I have been keeping this from mom. After telling her this truth she began to understand why I was so hateful towards men and why I had so many emotional ups and down.

She told me that my daddy was correct in his assumption that if she would have known I would not have been allowed to go over to his home. She said she remembered when I stayed away from Dad's house for over two years. She just did not know why.

The light went off in her head the other day.

There were no tears just honest talk and admittance from mom that she should have paid more attention to the entire situation.

Yes, my father should have told her so that I could have received the proper help, but he didn't and it cost me a life of sure uncertainty. A life of bitterness, pain, and misunderstood love.

I think mom may be a little angry but talking to dad won't work because he has been dead now for over 20 years. She knows my father loved me with all that was in him and that he never let me step-brother touch or harm me again.

He did what he felt he needed to so that I stayed a part of his life. Did it make him right? Not by any means!

I praise God for giving me the courage to tell my mother.

Truly it was liberating.



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She Did Not Do It!

For those who do not know this about me; I am a speaker, facilitator of
God's Word,podcast producer and host. My main platform is teaching
others to be proactive in the choices they make in life.

This
past Sunday I spoke to a group a teens about spiritual gifts, talents,
and purpose. I shared my testimony about molestation and not
understanding why God allowed it in my life. I told the teens it was
because I needed to share it for such a time as this. I felt someone
there needed to hear it.

I received an email from the
coordinator's mother. She said there was a young lady there who was
going to commit suicide that night due to issues she is facing similar
to mine. She took the time afterwards to share with someone what she
was going to do and how what I shared and the entire night saved her
life that night.

It appears that her best friend is being raped
by her own brother and his best friend every night. Something tells me
that it is really the young lady and not the best friend.

I am
still thanking God because I was that young lady. I tried suicide and
God snatched that bottle of bleach out of my hand. So I know her pain
well.

You know as I pondered why I needed to share this here is what God told me...

We
are all a part of the Kingdom Restoration Process for such a time as
this. The enemy is busy trying to kill, steal, and destroy but Jesus...

He came that we might have an abundant life.

The
Body of Christ is on the verge of a huge door opening and this is not
the time to give up. That young girl could be dead tonight if I had not
heeded the voice of God and spoke in a transparent manner (as is my
norm).

In Isaiah 43:19 God says that He will do a new thing. It
is happening now. He is making a way in the wilderness and providing
rivers in the desert.

I praise God for directing me towards that
young lady. I do not even know who she is, but because of my portion of
faith and discernment her life was saved and Satan did not win.


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